I'm pretty sure we almost broke up last night, as Taylor Swift sings. And I also could have thrown my phone at him if he was in my front. Luckily, he wasn't. My phone's safe, so is his pretty face.
He's been doing an excellent job ignoring me lately. Hopefully, an unconscious act on his part. He's been making me feel taken for granted and insignificant. Just the things I fear finding their way into reality (Utter ugh, I know!).
All signs -- everything that he's doing or (more appropriately) not doing -- are telling me that it would be wisest to end the relationship while it's still in the early stage before I become more emotionally involved.
This relationship is no longer nurturing me the way it used to. On the contrary, it's been disturbing my serene heart and romantic ideals. He's becoming disappointingly insensitive of my feelings and self-absorbed. The type of guy Taylor Swift described as a self indulgent taker in one of her songs (Gross! Sorry, I sound like an emotionally abused wife. That's the drama queen in me speaking.).
Funny, because despite those things, I can't let go just yet because I want to give 'us' a chance.
I remember reading on Facebook that if you feel you deserve something better, it probably means you do. If I follow this idea, the chain of events would include breaking up with him, moving on and hoping for the best. BUT he's not just something, he's SOMEONE!
One valuable lesson I learned in the past is that you don't easily give up on people you deeply care for without giving a damn good fight. I still hold good memories of the sweet, caring guy I fell in love with. I know that he's still the same person. Our distance might be affecting his recent attitude toward me but I believe it's merely a phase.
So, yeah, call me stupid, an idiot or whatever names you want but I'm continuing with this risky venture called love/relationship. After all, we compromise bits of our reason when we choose to respond to our heart's flutters.
I'm now choosing to sing to Jason Mraz's I Won't Give Up. I should probably put it on repeat on my playlist. New anthem of my life.
He's been doing an excellent job ignoring me lately. Hopefully, an unconscious act on his part. He's been making me feel taken for granted and insignificant. Just the things I fear finding their way into reality (Utter ugh, I know!).
All signs -- everything that he's doing or (more appropriately) not doing -- are telling me that it would be wisest to end the relationship while it's still in the early stage before I become more emotionally involved.
This relationship is no longer nurturing me the way it used to. On the contrary, it's been disturbing my serene heart and romantic ideals. He's becoming disappointingly insensitive of my feelings and self-absorbed. The type of guy Taylor Swift described as a self indulgent taker in one of her songs (Gross! Sorry, I sound like an emotionally abused wife. That's the drama queen in me speaking.).
Funny, because despite those things, I can't let go just yet because I want to give 'us' a chance.
I remember reading on Facebook that if you feel you deserve something better, it probably means you do. If I follow this idea, the chain of events would include breaking up with him, moving on and hoping for the best. BUT he's not just something, he's SOMEONE!
One valuable lesson I learned in the past is that you don't easily give up on people you deeply care for without giving a damn good fight. I still hold good memories of the sweet, caring guy I fell in love with. I know that he's still the same person. Our distance might be affecting his recent attitude toward me but I believe it's merely a phase.
So, yeah, call me stupid, an idiot or whatever names you want but I'm continuing with this risky venture called love/relationship. After all, we compromise bits of our reason when we choose to respond to our heart's flutters.
Love is working hard for every tomorrow. You find a partner to nurture you and help you become a better person. If it doesnt make you become a better person, maybe both parties need to talk more and understand each other.
ReplyDeleteDistance is just a number. Both of you should not get affected by it. Work hard on your relationship. Learn how to forgive and forget, how to become strong, how to have faith with each other.
Be patient, men may be cold on the front unlike women who tend to be more vocal about their feelings but deep inside they also hurt and think of their partners and miss their woman.
Hi! Thank you for the encouraging words. You're absolutely right about relationships requiring hard work, patience and faith in one another. Thank you!
DeleteThis article might be helpful: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tamara-shayne-kagel/relationship-advice_b_1603032.html
ReplyDeleteThe writer laid a sensible argument on why it's probably best to just break up with him already. She included a list of "12 signs you NEED to break up with him." I'm not telling you to follow her advice but her article might help you sort out your thoughts. I personally think she's right. I wish you well.
I just like to paste here a part of the article/link that I really liked. The excerpt might appear pessimistic but I tell you, the writer has a point! Well, just read it and decide for yourself. You can thank me later.
Delete"There is a culture in our relationship-obsessed young women's world that has obfuscated a dark truth: We are so overly focused on fixing our relationships that we have become completely blind to the fact that we're in terrible relationships. We read articles and talk and think for days about how to improve ourselves, our boyfriends and the health of our relationships. We give advice and listen to stories. But all this has inured us to the fact that we're just dating the wrong guy.
Part of the blame for this is the conventionally accepted wisdom that we're supposed to "work on our relationships." Today, we evaluate our relationships and assume we can fix these problems because we're told to talk things out and tell our men what we need from them. But we've ignored the most important part of working at relationships -- determining if we're in the right one.
We as women have deluded ourselves into believing that if we talk things out we can fix things and then we will have just the good portion of our relationship left. But there is very little you end up fixing in a relationship. Your relationship very often has the same problems two years from now that you have today. So you need to evaluate your relationship assuming the problem won't be fixed..."